Lately Ive been trying to keep my mind together, I still have no camera. Since the 2008 Jul Journal. "Still no Camera" Maybe someday.

But on the good side I might have camera in about a month or two, I hope.

My friend and feature brought me back to dA and really helped me. I need to be here, this place is home, from my watchers, to everyone on dA.

If your wondering how im doing, I am doing decent, life isn't that great my love left me. But its not really what I want to talk about. Ive been looking for a job, and im mostly focused on money now...

Thanks for your time.

PS. I will be posting lyrics in every journal that are important to me.


Atmosphere-
The first step was birth
Now forever cursed to analyze his self-worth
The second step was belief
He had to make that move before he even grew teeth
The third step, respect awareness
He could trip over the next step if he's careless
That next step, number four, was love
Can't touch it without stepping the other three above
As he froze for a moment
Ignoring the remaining ones
He was approaching, focus stolen
Looking down at his hands to see what he was holding
Nothing, empty
No choice but to keep going
The fifth step felt like a misstep
It was a re-evaluation of the first four
The anxiety, fear of what it hurts for
Caught in somewhere between the earths core
And the first floor
When he finally made it to step six
He could no longer see it for what it is
All of his views and family and life were askew
Number six had been twisted by the previous two
The last step, the seventh
Was the only thing left that kept him outside of heaven
One last breath and everything could be pleasant
Life through death, man's final lesson





Ryan Rios